Today was a hard day I know. Today was a day you would rather curl up in a ball and forget, a day you wish you could just turn back the clock and re-do. But you can’t and so you sit here, feeling lost and alone.
It started off in the morning with your crazy ED thoughts. Your appetite has been off the charts recently, and when you were still hungry after a hearty breakfast – you started letting those negative thoughts in. You shouldn’t have listened and given into their enticements – but you did. You should have taken the time to fuel properly, instead of trying to skimp by on just the bare minimum. You felt exhausted the whole day, and the only real reason was that you haven’t been getting enough fuel.
Please understand intuitive eating doesn’t always work for you. Some times you need to eat even when you’re NOT hungry, even when you feel you don’t “need” to. It’s vital not only for your overall health – but also your short term concentration and focus – as was proved to you today.
You didn’t go into your test fueled properly, and so although you really put your all into studying – it didn’t really pay off. And now you feel so low you can hardly keep your head up off the ground. You want to give into those negative voices and not eat, not sleep – somehow punish yourself for not doing enough, not being enough
. But I have news for you – you are enough. Your grades do not define you, studies do not define you, your diet or lifestyle do not define you. You are so much more then all these things. You are priceless just because of who you are and there are people that love you, no matter what you do or don’t do.
So take this lesson to heart and learn from it. Realize how detrimental those negative voices are, and determine not to give into them anymore. You may feel crushed – but you are not broken. This experience has taught you valuable lessons – let them grow you. And march into tomorrow with hope, with renewed motivation to take better care of yourself – because you are precious just as you are.
Always remember- failing doesn’t make you a failure. You only truly fail when you cease to get up and try again.
With love, Leelu