How’s everyone enjoying their weekend so far?
My emotions right now are mixed. Today was a great day overall – I slept in late, had a lazy breakfast, went out window shopping, got a haircut, lazed around – did everything a normal a person should do in a proper weekend. But there’s an underlying feeling of dread, because after this weekend it’s back to school for me. And as much as I DO enjoy studying, it’s hard to get back into it after you’ve taken a long break. Also I don’t really have any good friends back at uni, so I feel pretty lonely a lot of the time. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m not really that outgoing of a person, of if developing deeper friendships takes time and I need to just be patient, but there’s no one I really feel like I click with. This might sound a little snobby, but I feel a whole lot more mature then a lot of my classmates. I think it’s because of all the responsibility I’ve had since a very young age, or the experiences I’ve gone though. I don’t have a problem making acquaintances, but all my good friends live far away and I miss them.
Today’s breakfast – an oat bran sucsess. Banana oatbran topped with honey-PB. The perfect way to kick off a weekend!
However I am exited about getting a better balance between studying and the other aspects of my life. They say that the first semester is the hardest, and everything is downhill from here. We seem to have less subjects in this semester and not all my classes start at 8:00 – yay! So I’m going to try to devote more time to my social life, “me time” and exercise. During spring break I was able to devote more time to exercise and I forgot how GREAT it makes me feel. So I think I’m going to shoot for 3-4 times a week – nothing too extreme, but enough to keep me healthy and happy.
I’m also going to put more time into “self love”. I know this might sound weird to some of you, but during the first semester I was so obsessed with studying I didn’t do anything to paper myself. I NEVER painted my nails, makeup and hairstyling was just the bare minimum because I didn’t want to waste time. I’m not one of those girls that spends hours primping anyway, but I do enjoy taking a long leisurely shower, putting on some nice smelling lotion, taking a bit of time to put thought into my wardrobe and lifestyle. I’ve notice that little thing like this do loads for my self esteem and confidence, and I know it’s an important step in me learning to love myself again.
Family monopoly night with my siblings. One of the things I’m really gonna miss.
I was also able to work a bit, and take part in some internships at a restaurant. It was a really nice experience, because the manager of the restaurant was an incredibly understanding and nice woman, and I really feel like I learned a lot. Also, I was able to manage the situation eating wise. I never really had time to sit down and eat, so I had to rely on snacking on whatever was available. Some days it was a bowl of veggies (lightly sautéed in butter) others a French fries (hello major fear food). But I managed, I ate it, it didn’t kill me and honestly it didn’t even bother me all that much. I’m really happy I’m faced with these new experiences, because they force me to push myself in my recovery, and it’s cool to see how far I’ve come.
So this evenings plans are a movie, a glass sparkling wine and cake, a bit of evening blog reading and a pancake Sunday breakfast. And then it’s back to school for me…
Do you find it very easy to make friends? Or are you like me who really needs to get to know someone before you consider them a friend?