The other side of the coin -with a healthy dose of motivation.

While buried under a mountain of studies and assignments, I’ve actually found something that sparked my interest.

For our next psychology lecture, we were all asked to prepare a short presentation about anorexia and bulimia. Our professor was very specific about it not being a typical textbook definition of what these eating disorders  are – she wanted us to find something that was particularly interesting for us personally.

Initially, I put writing this assignment off as long as possible. Anorexia is still a word I shudder at the sound of. It still brings back a flood of memories, thoughts and feelings that I’ve fought for the last year to rid myself of. So naturally, the thought about doing research and delving back into that cold, dark world was enough to make me feel uncomfortable and apprehensive, to say the least.

But then I decided to take up a slightly different approach then all my other classmates. Instead of looking up behavioral patterns, health consequences and traumatic stories I turned my attention to what I hope to do in the future – helping those suffering from this awful disease.

It’s amazing what a change of perspective I’ve had over the last year. Any previous research done into curing anorexia always involved me picturing myself as the anorexic – struggling, trapped, desperate for help. But now as I read I felt nothing of the sort. Instead I felt empowerment  and motivation to continue to progress in my fight for recovery.  Because I want to help others. I’ve been through hell and come out to tell the tale. I’ve been hospitalized, had out-patient treatment, and finally fought for recovery on my own. And I understand what it’s like. I know the pro’s a con’s of each treatment method, I know what worked for me and what didn’t. And I know that even though it’s a rough and rugged road – it’s 100% doable and worth it.

There were people that looked at me at the beginning stages of recovery and told me it was too late. There were people that told me I wasn’t strong enough to recover, that I didn’t want it enough. Today I am proving those people wrong.

 

Specialists claim total recovery takes from 5-6 years and that only about 35 % of all anorexics fully recover. But guess what? – I’m going to be one of those 35%. And my experiences along with the knowledge about nutrition and health that I am gaining now will help me help all those other 65% out there that don’t believe it’s possible. Because anything is possible – if you only believe.

Was there a difficult experience in your life that you feel was crucial in shaping who you are today?

(As a side note , I probably won’t be posting much due to upcoming finals. But I’ll try to comment and post when I can. Thanks for reading :))

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9 comments

  1. Great post! I think my ED and the house fire we experienced in 2005 shaped me into who I am today. Although both were kinda rough, I learned so much from them and became mentally stronger 🙂
    Good luck with finals!

  2. Good luck with the presentaton, I did something similar for an english talk, and let me tell you I felt so good after. I spoke about what anorexia was, how it has nothing to do with being thin, looking like a model. I talked about my own perssonal experience what it has been like to live with the illness and what helped me in my recovery. People’s reactions were amazing and it helped me cause I felt that people really got it and understood it.

  3. Beautiful one, I’m super proud of you for not only tackling this very very challenging (and possible triggering) assignment, but taking it on with fresh eyes of hope and eyes that look forward into helping others beat this disease! Huge hugs. Yes! Be proud of being one of those 35%. You have strength and hope in yourself.
    Good luck with the presentation and upcoming finals. Try not to let the worries and stress of school bring you down.
    Have always loved that song: Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey have such angelic voices that I cry each time I hear it.
    xoxo

  4. That is a great focus for the assignment! Can’t wait to hear how it goes. I can relate to experiencing all different types of treatment as well.
    I believe Everything in my past has made me who I am today, good and bad.

  5. You are truly beautiful.
    This post made me smile, I believe you can be one of the 35%.
    And I think you are so brave for tackling this assessment – your direction on it is brilliant!
    Well done you for everything you have achieved, I hope you inspire others the way you inspire me 🙂


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