Sometimes I feel like my blog is almost like a journal – it’s a place I can just get it all out and collect my thoughts. I realized a long time ago that I don’t fit into any blogger category – I’m not a “health food” blogger, I’m not a runner or a fitness guru, neither am I some sort of a recovery expert . I’m just plain ol’ me, and I’m fine with that. Although I won’t pretend that I’m more then a little surprised that anyone reads this.
Although Saturday was pretty crazy- I did manage to have a rather relaxing Sunday. I slept in till (wait for it) 7:30, and treated myself with an old tradition.
French toast on whole wheat sunflower seed bread topped with smooshed banans and almond butter “dip”
By the way Angela’s almond butter invention is AMAZING – try it now!
I also did some grocery shopping, so I feel a lot more prepared to face the week ahead. Staples included crackers, nuts, oats, fruit and veggies, yogurt and loads of beans and grains.
Another weekend highlight was when I created this dessert hummus (based loosely off this recipie). I actually was low on time so I dumped a bunch of stuff into the blender and hoped for the best – and was actually pretty pleasantly surprised. I had it on crackers as a snack yesterday, and then again today as well – never too much of a good thing is there (and if there is don’t tell me).
I’m actually kind of chickpea’d out at the moment, considering I had this for dinner the other night, and then hummus sandwhiches for lunch – I might need a chickpea detox 😛
Chickpeas, lightly steamed brocolli, brown rice and hidden sunflower seeds – a no-fail , quick meal combination
Other activities included a long nap (I can’t remember the last time I did that), longs walks on a breeze autumn afternoon and a family card game with my siblings.
On another note I opened up to my mom about my stomach issues. One of my commenters (thanks Lenna) pointed out that something similar happens to them when they go home, and it got me thinking. I realized half the time the discomfort is triggered by anxiety and me trying so hard to please everyone, instead of just doing what’s best for me. It wasn’t easy for me to tell my mom this, as my diet is kind of a sensitive topic in my family – but she was pretty understanding which makes me feel a lot more confident about this whole thing. I will also start keeping a food diary to see exactly where I might be at fault in my eating habits and if there’s anything other than lactose that I’m allergic to.
I think there comes a time that you just have to stand up for yourself, in spite of what other people might think of you. I have a very hard time doing this, especially with people who’s opinions mean a lot to me. But I’m learning that sometimes honesty is the best policy, and people just need to accept me the way I am, plain and simple. It’s just too much pressure to try to be someone else when it makes everyone else happy, but you miserable. So I’m working on being more assertive and comfortable with myself and who I am – rather than trying to excuse and justify myself all the time. I think life is much better lived that way.
Any thoughts on the matter?
Do you find it hard to discuss controversial about yourself with your family or people you’re close to? Or are you the type of person that is entirely unappologetic about who you are?